Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Letting Go


It's easy to get wrapped up in things in college: school work, boys, friendships, partying. You can easily be consumed with these different things and before you know it they are taking over your life. I left first semester feeling exhausted because I was way too wrapped up in way too many of these things. I decided that I needed to make a change, I needed to simply let go. 

I learned that happiness doesn't come from spending everyday consumed by school work and that friendships don't occur by just studying together. It's okay to push the reading off for a bit and go get frozen yogurt with your friends. It's healthy to spend that extra time at dinner just laughing with your best friend. And you should most definitely go to that basketball game Saturday afternoon. All relationships take effort and your school work should never get in the way of that because when you graduate with that degree the people are the ones that will still be there for you. I realized as soon as I let go of the constant stress of school, I got my work done much more efficiently because I was 100x happier. Sometimes you have to let that assignment go for a little bit, so you can enjoy the moment and the people in your life. 

Similarly, I spent a lot of time first semester chasing after a guy. I put so much time into over thinking every interaction, paying attention to every little detail of my outfit, and analyzing how he would perceive me. It consumed so much of my time and energy, and truthfully it didn't give off a good impression. I ended up becoming way too attached to a guy that I would never end up dating. I so desperately wanted him to be a part of my life that I started to imagine it. It's difficult to remove that fantasy from my head. But I've realized that I need to let it go. I don't need to move on, I don't need to cry, I don't need to eat a mountain of ice cream; I just need to find happiness in myself. I'm going to live my life: dance with my girlfriends to my favorite songs, eat 5 doughnuts, and be genuinely silly. Because confidence and happiness are what truly make you attractive. 

I guess ultimately by letting go, I'm allowing my true self to show through. So here's to a semester of great memories, and letting go of the unnecessary stress. Because I truly do believe that happiness is a choice to make the most out of every single day of your life. 

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